If a year ago, you told me that I would be singing the German national anthem (yes, I know it now by heart) with German colors painted on my face and waving a German flag, I would tell you that you’re crazy. But somehow, all the experiences of the past year led me to this point as I celebrated the World Cup win with hundreds of thousands of Germans in the streets in Berlin.
The thought of German national
pride makes a lot of people uncomfortable. Before coming to Berlin and
understanding the current situation here, it made me uncomfortable too. A
Jewish family friend from LA visited a few weeks ago, and I offered her some advice
for things to see in the city. At the top of my list was the Reichstag
(the Parliament building), which visitors can climb and get amazing views of
the city. When I told her about it, she got uncomfortable and told me she
doesn’t feel right visiting German nationalistic sites. She’s not alone
in her view- I even have a friend who’s lived in Berlin for years now and has
German citizenship who told me that all the German flags hanging around the
city for the World Cup make her uneasy.
But if there’s one thing I’ve
taken away from my year in Berlin, it’s that I no longer associate this place
with anti-Semitism and the Holocaust. I no longer feel uncomfortable
seeing German police officers. I no longer get nervous when German is
spoken loudly. When I see old people on the bus, I no longer wonder what
they were doing during World War II.
That’s not to say that I am
forgetting what happened here. There are constant reminders around the
city from street signs to memorials to Stolpersteine (“stumbling stones” with
former Jewish residents’ names on them) to make sure that doesn’t happen.
And I feel my grandmother’s presence in the area she used to live and go to
school. But rather than feel overwhelmed by the history of the city, I
now feel its modern culture and diversity propelling it forward.
I couldn’t help but wonder what
my grandmother, a Holocaust survivor from Berlin would think about me waving a
German flag, singing the national anthem, and blending into a crowd of
Germans. I really believe that she would be proud, not only of her
granddaughter who returned to her home city to help rebuild the Jewish
community, but of the country she once called her homeland. A place that
once persecuted and deported her and her family but that has now risen above
that dark period to become a progressive, accepting country that honors its
Jewish citizens.
I left the World Cup celebration
thinking about all these things and being excited to feel part of this country,
but my excitement quickly changed as I turned the corner to my street and came
upon a Palestinian rally. I have seen dozens of Palestinian rallies back
in LA, but this one felt different.
The protestors began with the
usual chants saying “Kinder murder- Israel” (“Child murder- Israel”) which was
unsettling to hear, but what came next was even more disturbing. The
protestors started to yell “Death to Jews.” At this point, they were
literally standing next to a Holocaust memorial a hundred meters from where I
live. Even amidst the growing anti-Semitism happening around the world
today, especially in Europe, I have felt very much protected from it in
Germany. I haven’t experienced any anti-Semitism during my year here
living, working, and socializing inside and outside of the Jewish community.
Incidences like the Paris synagogue attack that happened last Sunday don’t
happen here. And even though these anti-Semitic protestors outside my
apartment were Arabs, they still live here and are German citizens.
Hearing them chant “Death to Jews” shattered that sense of security I have felt
all year in Berlin.
The night of the celebrations was
supposed to be my last night in Berlin. The plan was for me to be in
Israel now, working in a small student village in the desert, but because of
everything that is happening over there, I am staying in Berlin for at least
the next week.
In the same spot where the Palestinian rally took place on the same street as the German World Cup celebration, I also attended a pro-Israel rally a few days ago. Of course, this rally did not include anything violent or hateful. About 100 people came and showed their support for Israel defending itself and protecting its citizens. People made speeches, played Israeli music, and waved flags. It makes me proud to be associated with these people, who support Israel but also empathize with the civilians on the other side. What a stark contrast this was from the protestors who were yelling "Death to Jews." I saw this contrast as very representative of the greater conflict.
In the same spot where the Palestinian rally took place on the same street as the German World Cup celebration, I also attended a pro-Israel rally a few days ago. Of course, this rally did not include anything violent or hateful. About 100 people came and showed their support for Israel defending itself and protecting its citizens. People made speeches, played Israeli music, and waved flags. It makes me proud to be associated with these people, who support Israel but also empathize with the civilians on the other side. What a stark contrast this was from the protestors who were yelling "Death to Jews." I saw this contrast as very representative of the greater conflict.
I read an article today in which
Natan Sharanksy, who I had the pleasure of meeting in Israel last month,
discusses the future of European Jewry, a topic I’ve dealt with extensively
throughout my time in Europe. Sharanksy believes that increasing rates of
Aliyah from Europe which are the result of growing anti-Semitism (especially in
France) could mark “the beginning of the end of European Jewry.” My
interactions with young Jews from all over Europe have made me optimistic about
the future of European Jewry, but with the growing incidences of anti-Semitic
violence and discrimination, especially in countries like France and Hungary,
my optimism is fading a bit.
Jewish writer and activist Marek
Halter recently published an article with a plea to European Jews against
making Aliyah. “Will
you cede to those seeking our disappearance? Will you leave this home of ours
to jihadists and the National Front?” he wrote. European Jewish
communities are divided on the subject of Aliyah, and it’s an issue that I’m
also struggling with. Should Jews stay and fight the anti-Semitism
happening in their home countries, or should they escape to Israel where they
can live Jewish lives without fear? Hearing an angry crowd yell “Death to
Jews” on my street, in arguably one of the safest cities for Jews in the entire
continent is forcing me to address that question.
What a contrasting few days
filled with mixed emotions it has been: World Cup celebrations, Israel under
siege, demonstrations and death threats…but this is how life is here.
Working in the now celebrated Jewish community that was once persecuted, living
in an old Jewish building surrounded by new buildings, and moving to a city
that my grandmother was deported from inherently brings with it contrasts and
daily experiences that are changing how I view the world.
Brianna - this post was amazing. I got goosebumps reading it. Your observations are so authentic and insightful. I feel so far from Israel and Europe, but it was truly meaningful to read your personal account of the conflict. Keep up the fantastic work and thank you so much for sharing!!!!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Melissa! Glad you enjoyed it! Hope all is well in New York :)
DeleteReally liked your post. It gave me a lot to think about. Thanks for sharing Brianna!
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